OMG

everything is getting so fucked up now and i don't even kno why. victor and me don't even fucking talk anymore thanks to the twins. OMG this is probably the saddest thing thats ever happened to me. GOD!! Why the hell did they have to fuck everything up between me and victor? I'm thinking about jus droppin them and mara, becuz i love victor SO much.. and i jus wanna talk to him and be around him and stuff. i miss him. today when i came out of my french class, i saw him walking down the hallway. that so broke my heart because he ALWAYS waits for me. but not this time. =[ uGh.. i actually started crying in 2nd hour. that was so embarrasing. WHAT SHOULD i DO GUYS?!?! i really really need him in my life, but i don't knoe if can jus drop 3 of my best friends.. jus 2 talk him and stuff. u knOe? Is that right? and even if i do.. he'll still be gay, and not even knoe how i feel about him... sO.. i jus don't know anymore. PLEASE..i totally need sum major advice guys!! WHAT SHOULD i dO??

maLia

HEY!!!

YAY!!! Victor and damien are breakin up!! WOOT WOOT!!! i'm soooooooooo happie!! but now itz caused hellah problemz in our lil group.. damien, dezmond, and mara really don't like victor anymore.. and since i'm always hangin wit him.. like ALWAYS.. they don't really talk 2 me anymore. well they do, but rarely.. only wen victorz not around me. i really really really like victor, but i don't wanna lose any friends over there problems!! =[ dayng.. this is so confusing! And OMG u kno wut else? They all think that victor and me are fucking.. and about 2 hook up!! I WISH!!!! but i was like umm no.. he's gay.. and their like yea, but he always says how beautiful u r and all that stuff! and i was all tryna hide my giant smile!! ahhaaha!! man.. this is crazy.. i'm all secretely in love wit victor, and NO ONE knoes!! lOl.. well except u guys.. but i knoe nunn y'all gonna tell him!! tEEhEE! crazy huh? not even my mom knoes.. and i tell my mom about all the guys i've liked in the past and stuff. MAN!! i can't wait till 7pm.. cuz me and victor gonna hang out and go watcha movie!! =] OMG this morning.. damian was like, "What are you doing this weekend? Victor??" i was like OMG WTF!!! OMFG!!! do u think they knoe i like him?? OMG they bettah not.. i would jus dIE!! haha.. well i'll write more later!! bUhbYe!!

maLia

AHHHH!!

i'm home sick 2day!! =[ mannng.. i'm sad!! i wanted 2 go 2 skoo so i ken see the luv of my life. hAhAhA! gRRR!!! plus 2day was my fave schedule! manng i miss victor sooo much.. do u guys think he'll ever find out how i feel about him? Cuz i sho ain't gonna tell him. i'm scared of rejection... i mean he makes it clear everyday that he likes guys and guys ONLY! but fuck.. maybe it's just a phase he's goin thru or sumthin.. u neva knoe! i hope thats jus wut it is.. cuz he is way 2 good of a guy 2 be in2 guys.. thats jus a major waste of a GUY!!!! gRRRRRRRRRRR!! sumtimez i wonder tho.. if he would still act the same way and have the same personality.. and jus be the guy that i fell in love wit .. if he wasn't gay. hMmMm.. i WoNdER...

-maLia-

HI GUYS!!

omg guess wut?? i really don't think victor likes damien.. YAY!!! maybe.. JUST MAYBE.. haha nevermind. that won't happen.. even if he doesn't like damien, he'll still like guys. he likes that guy charles now. uGh.. charles is such a loser. he dropped out of high school 2 get his GED and work at McDonalds.. WOW isn't that just awesome? and he drives like a rusty old 80's police lookin car. its crazy. and victor'z in2 that kinda thing.. YEAH. he should like me!! i'm awesome and i have a car thats 20 years newer than charles' and i'm still in school!! =] oh well.... victor will jus learn the hard way that he needs a girl in his life (ME) but he WILL learn sumday.. hEhEhE!

OMG!!!

FINALLY.. finally i found my fave song EVER.. now i can put it on my page!! YAY!! =] bLINK-182 ROCKZ!! haha yea rock on.. or wutever..! lOl..

gOOd dAY 2 yA!